I have more positives. Yay!
R got shots today. I had to take him by myself, my husband couldn’t get off work. We both did okay. R saw the shots coming this time, he started crying as soon as we headed back there. But, he stopped crying soon after and I had him smiling in the waiting room. He was also very patient while we waited, he just sat in my lap and looked around. I had to go to the bank and Target after, which I was dreading, but he slept through all of it. Awesome.
I can tell I’m feeling so much better. Today was R was crying, I didn’t freak out, I didn’t start sweating. I just soothed him, and he was okay. I haven’t been able to do that up til now. I was so happy I could get over my anxiety and just be there for my baby. I’m sure he was happy too.
I’m feeling much more motivated. I’m not letting the house get horribly messy before I clean it, I keep up on things better. I get dressed every day, I brush my hair. This is huge.
After my crash yesterday, I pulled myself out of it. I let myself cry and feel hopeless, then I got up and went about my day. It didn’t set me back as much as it has in the past.